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| I was looking through my sophomore year book today and I cracked up laughing at some of the things people said. Stu Foster is one that I'll never forget.
Kayla-
To have you as a friend everyday was/is awesome. Every conversation has been full and worthwhile. I hope we have mutually learned about each other and take it to spread those seeds into other people. I think our world would flourish around us because of it.
-Stu Foster
Roy Brodhacker had a nice one too. Very short and 'sweet'
I don't like animal rights people but you're okay.
And Jon-Eric Meyer, my senior mentor...I have the worst time trying to read what it says but I laugh everytime I'm done.
<can't tell> up babygrl-
u crack me up! u have been awesome and I hope I've been a good senior mentor. You're so nice, sweet, and very pretty. I don't know if that's legal for me to say that b/c I'm 18 but it's true. best of luck to u.
Your senior mentor, J E Meyer
I got tons of "HAGS" and tons of "You're so sweet!" I don't know if everyone gets those, but I laughed thinking about sophomore year. I almost always had on a smiling face. Junior year I was almost always frowning or on the verge of tears. Senior year...it's been a mix. There were times of the day that I was always happy (first hour!) and times when I was almost always sad (third hour).
I don't really know what I'm saying or why I'm saying it, but high school has been great, even when I thought it was horrible. I have tons of memories of people that I never see, but I'll never forget them.
Michael Burris(04)--Pumpkin. Granny
John O'Keefe(04)--"I'm a butch lesbian", Cabbie!
Bobby Coffield(05)--The umbrella!, *poke* Tickle fight!
Nathan Keathley(04)--"Who the hell is Skillet?", "Late to class again?"
Zak Morgan(05)--McDonalds
Ismail Salmeen(04)--"Your panties are showing", "You're cute when you're angry.", "I like your dimples.", "Lets see. You banged the wood, screwed me, and you hammered the nails."
Tatiana Alexenko(06)--"Teach us a Russian drinking song!"
Anja Ashton(06)--BUGGY!, don't eat too many skittles
Madi Blumenschein(06)--your pink hair was the best! Alien baby. Haiku about Mrs. Cone
Jeffrey Browning(06)--If only you wouldn't have cut your lip at Beccas!
Ben Bryan(06)--You need to cut your hair!
Jennifer Bryer(06)--I wasn't in your house group! Cheerleaders, GO!
Alicia Cicon(06)--Laughter. Books.
Rebecca Critser(06)--SMILE! "Vegan pizza? What's that?" "I feel pretty!"
Michael Ford(06)--Mario, the wall game, shrooms, little black ring, courtwarming, conversation hearts, the call from NYC, yellow blanket
Hannah Frost(06)--Frosty on Frosty Ln., Left-handed notebook, "Did you get your schedule all figured out?"
Brittany Fuemmeler(06)--What do I call you? Jaguar, Faye, Brit? Mike Remy's house.
Sean Griesbaum(06)--"We can go to the library.", Dukes of Hazzard, cars
Kurt Heine(06)--Biology...for a week, MSND
Edward Henderson(06)--too quiet. too tall
Ali Hicks(06)--A Million Ways, combat boots, courtwarming, Mrs. Cone.
Tommy Hogan(06)--egg baby
Aaron Hutchinson(06)--9th grade dance=awkward
Mary James(06)--"hot guys? whatever"
Mohamed Johnson(06)--why do you have to like me so much?!
Savannah Jones-Salisbury(06)--Banana!, count 'em 8 (I know those weren't in h.s.), lunch sophomore year
Heather Maynard(06)--"Shakey Bakey"
Joshua McCulloch(06)--Nazis?, Psych, "What did you do to Corey? I'm going to kill you in your sleep"
Amanda Miller(06)--Mander oranges, MAC daddy pandas, hugs, relax!
Quezya Miner(06)--beautiful, calming
Jennifer Mink(06)--I loved that one B-day of yours. My feet got blisters from walking
Ryan Olson(06)--"Hey, Girl!"
Julie Park(06)--Hagima! I miss you!
Bryan Renner(06)--haha! You couldn't climb into the tree!
Hannah Robbins(06)--SO talented!
Ryan Schafer(06)--Brit Lit, "I got a paper for you"
Hannah Sher(06)--Nationals, JCL, always sleeping
Brandon Sjoblom(06)--Slobem, elephants don't have good traction, "stop laughing! It hurts!", black hole backpack
Julia Spiers(06)--What on earth possessed you to take Latin your senior year?
Andrew Swaney(??)--you're not really apathetic, when are you actually gonna stay in school?
Amelia Tegerdine(06)--cotillion rocked, Portkey
Alyssa Trecha(06)--best chem partner ever.
Drew Walters(06)--from soccer to cowboy and then back. What happened over spring break?
Jennifer Wang(06)--"You're dating Mike Ford, right?", thanks
Duane Wegener(06)--your bag is too big
Michael Wiehe(06)--love the hair, come to youth group more often!
Kirsten Wills(06)--where do I start? princess hair, lesbian lover, I want my whip, your bed has handles, violent love, cardboard boxes and plastic bottles, ice cream, pride & prejudice
Rolf Harding(06)--evil bunnies? cute cat picture, paddington bear coat, pretty curls
Mary Acuff(05)--rock! Thanks, big sis
Katherine Bauer(05)--Vodka in psych, butt crack
Jess Brodhacker(05)--Newt...crazy driver.
Robbie Corcoran(05)--What can I say? fights, youth group, late night movies
Corey Dunne(05)--Tartuffe. hairspray. big hair
Cory Gilland(05)--airplane from NYC
Vladimir Glinskii(05)--"What's your name?"
Cooper Glodoski(05)--Robin Hood, fat man, Pygmalion
Kyle Haromn/Todd Hayes(05)--Gay lovers
Jason Lacey(05)--intercom, sex noises, laugh
Dustin Leaf(05)--Linn State, quiet, The Crow
Jeremy Lincourt(05)--movies, "I'll give you guys some privacy"
Hillary Overfelt(05)--Bruin of my Life, NYC, theater, HO
Mason Prashek(05)--"Oh look. Baby's crying."
Dan Rader(05)--Harry Potter, psych
Mike Remy(05)--obsession, broken nose, snow fights
Bryan Sharkey(05)--Latin II senior, city bus
Lindsay Simpson(05)--"Don't you know I will cut you, nigga!", "Does your sister know her clothes don't match?"
Barrett Villiers(05)--Theater, host, 'head over heals' frog
Amy Williams(05)--hats, Kawaii
Jason Jordan(05)--red ears, Tartufful, nice shirt
Dewalle Aliyu(04)--love survey
Duncan Bidbeutel(04)--pictures, theater, Maude
Tim Bonham(04)--Latin TA, Niobe
Roy Brodhacker(04)--grasslands, chew
Paul Cavanaugh(04)--New England
Charlie Childers(04)--Valentines day, "Here. This if for you.", "Hey, how are you doing?"
Young Sin Cho(04)--teddy bears, wedding dress
Heather Gibson(04)--slutty clause, short people have no reason to live
Kelley Kullman(04)--KKK, "You're my favorite sophomore"
Jon-Eric Meyer(04)--tennis, party
Shelby Sapp(04)--grasslands, nerdy hick
George Shelby(04)--"I'll come back for your graduation", Fat Friar
Ethan Vizitei(04)-Dicken!
Dan Vollrath(04)--"I know my rods. That's G-rod"
Greg Abbott(08)--veggies, camping light, handsome
Robbie Acuff(08)--crump, hair cut
Noel Davis(08)--hair, obsession, hurt, notes, whispers
Laura Dixon(08)--pe, Hippolyta, "I'm married to Isaac!"
Madelyne Dodson(08)--Ipod, Hickman JCL shirt
Jane Erdel(08)--"I can't do Latin anymore", "I had to take an ice bath"
Erin Hanson(08)--seat stealer, director, eyes, capture the flag
Stephanie Huett(08)--Piccalo and Daphne, Stop and Go shirt
Ben Keown(08)--running shorts, tights, "How's Rob doing?", "You were on my random matches"
Tracy Lang(08)--"I don't understand why I'm not getting it", "Hey Kayla. Can you help me?"
Jade Li(08)--coin game, JCL
Tatia Leydne(08?)--"YOU'RE FIRED!"
Josh Nemec(08)--"Get out there and dance!", "Don't do that"
Lexi Price(08)--hugs, russian, whales
Meredith Spiers(08)--milking boots, Daphne, sleep
Alex Terwelp(08)--where to start....cheese, camping, thomas, fashion show, president, line game
Zach Beeson(07)--lunch line
Tyler Birkhofer(07)--mexican hat dance, hallway, red hat, hangman, study, tests, stress
Bethany Bonham(07)--"Are you a cool sophomore?", camping, state, Ursa
Nuzhat Chowdhury(07)--Portkey!, snuzzie, nuz-hat
Amanda Ellison(07)--"Kayla, can you help me?"
Jennifer England(07)--nationals, marathon, 12 tests, mules
Andreya Evans(07)--lunchtime, Bugles, LaX
Max Hartz(07)--"Start My Tractor Sexy", *wink*
Tracy Higgins(07)--Midnight Madness party, lunch, England
Ashley Hutchinson(07)--"Get over it!" temper problems
Tyler Jones-Salisbury(07)--slinky, stress, brilliant
Amy McCauley(07)--Lee's Chicken!
Sara Moesel(07)--portkey, funny pose
Jessica Plummer(07)--fake babies, Max, Brenden
Amanda Shepard(07)--contemp. fic.
Timothy Vansciver(07)--"You can't tell me what to do!"
There are more, but either I couldn't think of them, or they weren't really that memorable.
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Is there anyone that fails
Is there anyone that falls
Am I the only one in church today feelin' so small
Just because we're at church doesn't mean you have to be perfect. In fact, at church you should be aware of how often you fail.
Cause when I take a look around
Everybody seems so strong
I know they'll soon discover
That I don't belong
I wonder how many times I've thought I didn't belong, and that I was weird, only to find out that what I thought I was the only person to do, other people do as well.
So I tuck it all away, like everything's okay
If I make them all believe it, maybe I'll believe it too
So with a painted grin, I play the part again
So everyone will see me the way that I see them
If you're going through something hard, chances are someone else as gone through it as well. Don't convince yourself that you're unique in your problems
Are we happy plastic people
Under shiny plastic steeples
With walls around our weakness
And smiles to hide our pain
But if the invitation's open
To every heart that has been broken
Maybe then we close the curtain
On our stained glass masquerade
Is there anyone who's been there
Are there any hands to raise
Am I the only one who's traded
In the altar for a stage
It's so easy to get into the act of following the Lord. Show up to church, sing the songs, listen to the message, and then you're over for a week. Simple as that. Don't let it happen.
The performance is convincing
And we know every line by heart
Only when no one is watching
Can we really fall apart
Is it a natural human
reaction to hide everything inside, and only let it out when we're
alone? Or is it something society has told us to do? It doesn't make
anything easier, yet we still do it.
But would it set me free
If I dared to let you see
The truth behind the person
That you imagine me to be
If you're upset, talk about it. Stop hiding who you really are just to fit in.
Would your arms be open
Or would you walk away
Would the love of Jesus
Be enough to make you stay
Opening up to people is a huge step of trust. You could spill all of your problems to someone, only to have them walk off or make you feel small. You have to hope that they will love you like Jesus, and stay.
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| So, I've been thinking a lot lately, about all sorts of things in life and I finally think I'm beginning to be okay with what I've been thinking about.
Yesterday in youth group we were talking about how even if you think you have something unforgivible, God will forgive you. God forgiving me wasn't my problem. My problem was forgiving myself. I couldn't believe I had done what I did and I guess for a long time I didn't admit to myself that I had done it. I kept saying "It was his fault. I was just pulled into it by him" but that's not the way it went. It takes two to tango and went along with it.
Last night, I was pretty upset by it so when I got home, I decided to write it all down in my journal so that I would be admitting that something happened. I starting writing and I was amazed at how much I had to say about the situation and how much I was hiding from myself. I never let myself see why it had happened. I was so stuck on it being all the other persons fault that I didn't see that I may have started it.
I felt a lot better when I finally went to bed. It's still a little weird for me because I'm slowly telling myself "Kayla, it's okay to feel awkward around this person. It's okay to remember what happened. What's not okay is to push the blame all off onto someone else or to not fully see your part in what happened."
So there you have it. I'm feeling a lot better about everything now.
Final thoughts:
- I'm afraid of death.
- Casting Crowns is a really cool band.
- No one can guilt me into doing something I don't want to do.
- Sudoku puzzles are really fun.
- Keyboards and mice get real dirty, real fast. (ick!)
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| My cat is so freaking adorable! He's sitting on my lap right now, just purring because he's getting attention. I love him. Another thing I love are lists. So I'm making one for the things I love about my cat.
- He's afraid of the dark! How cute is that?
- When I'm feeling down, he wipes away my tears with his paws (looks like he's softly batting my face)
- When I'm balling and no one can get through to me, he attacks me to shake me out of it. Makes me mad sometimes but then I feel really bad for yelling at him.
- When I'm really tired, he comes and lays down with me.
- When he wants attention really bad, he gives me kisses (puts his nose to my mouth). I've never quite figured out where he learned that.
- He seems to understand human emotions, thoughts, and actions.
- He looks so cute when he's laying on his back!
- He thinks he's a mountain climber sometimes, clawing his way up the windows.
- He's afraid of the doorbell.
- No matter how mean I can be to him, he will always love me.
One final note. Mary J, not sure if you're going to read this, but if you do, SHAME ON YOU! | | |
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